Anxiety Strikes Yet Again

Today has been one hell of a weird and frustrating day for me..today is the day before I have to go back to work after having 2 weeks off for school holidays and every time this happens I get a little anxious about it all.....it also happens on the eve of every Monday night before returning to work for the week and it happens when I am thinking about stuff, when I am planning a special dinner, when on the way to Melbourne to stay at my sister's, when I answer the telephone, and when I talk about any future business plans I have... I don't really know why this happens but I can say it has something to do with my stress levels of 2011 and self confidence levels since then and, that it has and probably will effect me for quite some time longer. Anyway this morning was one of the many mornings that I have anxiety prior to getting out of bed to face the day and today as most days Dave notices and when he does proceeds to tell me to get out of bed and stop thinking so hard (he is right ofcourse as the longer I stay in bed the more I think and the more I think the more anxious I become), and so after a while I get up, shower and then sit and ponder what next (unless ofcourse I am going to work and then I would just leave and ponder on the way to work instead). There are so many things that I like doing and want to do but just can't seem to get myself motivated to do them, like cooking, drawing, gardening and so on. I am planning to start a picnic and catering business which I have already registered the name for and I am now waiting to complete a Supervisor Safe Food Handling course at the start of May before I can register with the council as a commercial kitchen. The thought of it all overwhelms me and then I get stuck, my mind goes into a whirlwind of thoughts and then that is where it ends....too overwhelming to go any further....the idea of selling myself as a business owner and selling my food to paying customers scares the hell out of me. I know I can cook and that the customers will be happy with what they get but it's that initial push I need to actually get it up and running. Breath in through your nose, hold and breath out through your mouth...........there all better now!................. I wish!
Steph