Redirecting My Thoughts

I'm grateful for the ability to place myself elsewhere, to redirect my mind so as to not think about the present and the fact that my father just died 4 days ago, and my mother is truly sad that her partner of fifty years has passed and is not returning to her. I'm truly hoping that I can keep this up, at least until after the funeral, so that I can stand up there, in the chapel and present my eulogy, without breaking down and crying. Somehow I have managed this front for this long, so hopefully I can do this for just a little longer. Steph