I didn't blog yesterday because my son Nick and his girlfriend Becca were here and I don't get to see them that often so time was precious. They left today at about 5pm to go back home and then apparently to go on a surprise adventure that Nick had planned but Becca doesn't know about, he said he will send me photos. Anyway today I am grateful for being able to realize that my kids are getting older and much more independent, they want to do their own thing and that is great. I miss them dearly, I even miss Alex who lives with us as he spends a lot of time in his room. Let's face it, which teenager wants to spend time with their parents? Really? I miss my kids and I love them all dearly and I even cry sometimes as they are all growing up so fast and the faster they grow it seems the farther away they seem. I, for a brief moment thought, why do we have kids? maybe it would have been easier not to have them, then there wouldn't be the heartache and this feeling of emptiness that I seem to be taking a while to get used to! But, then, I thought, God no! I am so grateful for all those years that I have had with my kids, they are beautiful and good, really good kids, they have turned out to be great and respectful with morals and with good heads on their shoulders. I still worry about them most of the time but realize that I have to let go and let them go their own way, and know that they will come and visit their mother because I am a good mum and they love me.
Steph
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| Nick |
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| Alex |
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| Zoe. She's still mine for quite some time, but one day I will have to let go of this one too! |
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