Strength and Amazing Family

Thank God today is over, it went well, considering it was my papa's funeral. I am grateful that I stood up and said the eulogy, even though at first I thought I was going to break down just after one line. But then I paused and kept going and paused and kept going, right through until I had finished. At one point I paused so long trying to contain my tears and stop myself from breaking down into a blubbering mess that my sister stood up to come and support me, but I held up my hand as if to say, "stop" and she did. If she had come beside me I would have definitely broken down and would not have been able to say the whole eulogy. I am proud of myself for doing it on my own, for standing there and talking about my father at this difficult and sad time. I'm grateful for the strength I have at this particular moment, I don't completely understand it, but I'm grateful for it. I am also not only grateful, but so very proud of my children, Nicholas, Alexander and Zoe, Nick's girlfriend Becka, my sister Isabella, and ofcourse my gorgeous husband Dave, they have coped well, they have been supportive to myself and especially to my mum. They have all been truly amazing and I couldn't ask for a better family. I love them dearly. Steph